Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Hong Kong Student Leader Joshua Wong's Letter to His Mother 黃之鋒致母親書英文翻譯

Mum, I Owe You a Birthday Meal 
(原文在後)
November 30 (Sunday) is mum’s birthday. Before that day, I said to mum: “Mum, I’m very sorry that I won’t be able to celebrate your birthday with you. We’ll take action to escalate our movement. I’ll be up all night at Admiralty and won’t come home. Let’s have that birthday meal on December 1.” Because of my hunger strike, this birthday meal was postponed.

In fact, I have had pathetically few opportunities to come home to see my family since the Umbrella Movement began. The tents in Admiralty have become my second home, but my real home has become estranged. Whenever I come home to change clothes, parents were either asleep or at work. Even when we actually met, I was too tired to talk and fell asleep because of extreme exhaustion. So we’ve only been chatting here and there on  “whatsapp”. I miss having late supper, drinking milk tea on those nights with my family. In my blurred memories, I long for those meals with the whole family at the table.

Because of this, the only thing in my thoughts when we discussed who would go on hunger strike was mum’s birthday meal. I was worried if I lost the chance to have that meal, when would be our next time to eat at the same table again. I can count with one hand how many meals I have had since the occupation began. I’m not afraid of the sense of starvation brought by a hunger strike. I’m only worried the relationship with my family will become distant because of the hunger strike.


Nevertheless,  I still made this decision, to go on a hunger strike with Prince Wong and Isabella Lo. As Scholarism’s organizer, it’s natural for me to take the responsibility, and should not involve two female students. I need to take action, either going forward or backward, with every fellow student in our group. The more important thing is to be determined not to let the Umbrella Revolution fail.

Even if the hunger strike won’t be effective -- I know a hunger strike won’t shake the government, and it’s difficult to make them withdraw the decision by the National People’s Congress (NPC). But I’m feeling guilty for returning home empty handed from the Umbrella Movement. Not even a single outcome. This makes one feel rather powerless. But before being arrested again, I’m not planning to occupy indefinitely. When the voices for retreating are becoming louder, I can only use my body to shout at the government, calling out to my fellow warriors who once held umbrellas, facing our original goal that seems to have been forgotten. It’s not about arguing over police over, it’s not about conflicts between blue ribbons and yellow ribbons, but about political problems made by those in power behind the ribbons and batons. We should be back at the negotiation table, solving problems through politics.

A dialogue between officials and civilians over “restarting political reforms immediately” -- this is not a hefty demand. This demand has no direct connection with the decision (by the NPC) on August 31. It’s not violating the Basic Law. The Hong Kong government received the NPC decision and ignored people’s demands such as “abolishing the Selection Committee (to elect the Chief Executive)” and “nomination by citizens”. We only want the government to restart political reforms, which is within its power to process demands, making officials face issues in Hong Kong. We want the government to overturn all the past consultations, decisions and procedures and start all over again. In so doing, the Umbrella Movement can find a turning point and some hope.

Asking for dialogue is a very humble demand. The purpose of the hunger strike is to try every means to bring some outcome with all others in this movement. I only hope mother can understand my decision. Do you still remember that you didn’t criticize or question me after I called you about the hunger strike decision?  You just said plainly: “I understand. I wait for you, Joshua, to come home for my birthday meal.” After that, I was overwhelmed by a sense of guilt all of a sudden. At that moment, I said many sorries. I knew you asked me to spend less time online and more time to rest. But I still want to publicly thank you and father for your tolerance and support. There’s one sentence that I find it hard to say, thoughI’m a rational, straight forward quick mouth, I’m not used to saying such a thing. But I want to say it to mum, whose birthday was the day before yesterday, mum: I love you. 

The day when C.Y. Leung is willing to have a dialogue with students will be the day to make up for this birthday meal. I will remember what you said: rest and pray during the hunger strike. And finally, please allow me to say this: I am very grateful for and proud of my parents.

Joshua Wong

On the 23rd hour of the hunger strike

December 2, 2014

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原文
【媽媽,我欠你的生日飯。】

11月30日(星期日)是媽媽的生日,生日前夕我跟媽媽說:「媽媽,很抱歉,未能跟你在正日慶祝生日,那天有升級行動,通宵在金鐘未能回家,生日飯留待12月1日才吃吧。」因著絕食,媽媽的這餐生日飯被迫押後。

其實雨傘運動開始至今,回家跟家人相見的機會少得可憐,金鐘的帳篷成了我的第二個家,但原來的家卻轉變得陌生,回家更換衣物之時,父母不是在熟睡,就是在辦公室上班,若能見面因著經過度疲累,三言兩語的也談不上便倒頭大睡,只能在whatsapp的片言隻語交流,我想念著晚晚跟家人吃消夜喝奶茶,也憶起模糊的片段,一家人齊齊整整在餐桌吃飯的時光。

正因如此,在會議討論絕食人選時,我唯一考慮的就是媽媽那餐生日飯,只憂心沒機會吃生日飯的話,下次在飯桌吃飯也不知是甚麼時候,坦然佔領至今跟家人吃飯的次數,一隻手也數得完,我不懼怕絕食帶來的飢餓感,只擔憂因著絕食跟家人的關系變得疏遠。

然而,我還是下了這個決定,跟黃子悅和盧妍慧參與絕食,除了因為自覺作為召集人應承擔責任,不應由得兩名女生絕食,理應跟組織的每位同學,不論職位或身份共同進退,更重要的還是抱著一份對雨傘運動的不甘心。

縱使絕食的作用不大,我也深知絕食不能撼動政權,難以撤回人大決定,但我還是不安於雨傘運動空手而回,連一個成果也取得到,實在讓人有種無力的感覺,但在未能再度被捕的時候,我不是打算無了期地佔領下去,但在清場呼聲越來越響的時候,謹能用我的身軀跟政權吶喊,呼喚著曾經撐傘的戰友,重返起面對那個不慎遺忘的初衷,不是警權爭議,不是藍黄之爭,而是在絲帶和警棍背後當權者所製造的政治問題,理應重返談判桌透過政治解決。

就著「立即重啟政改」進行官民對話,根本不是開天殺價的訴求,這項訴求八三一決定沒有直接扣連,亦不違反基本法,我們只想在港府拿「人大決定」擋下「公民提名」和「廢除功能組別」等訴求時,透過重啟政改這項港府權責範圍需要處理的訴求,促使官員正視香港問題,把一切過往的諮詢、決定和程序推倒重來,才能讓雨傘運動找到轉機和希望。

要求對話只是一項卑微的訴求,絕食只為盡一切所能在運動跟大家取回成果,只盼母親能諒解我的決定,還記得我在電話跟妳說自己要絕食以後,妳沒有甚麼批評,也沒有質疑,只是淡淡地說「明白的,我等著之鋒你回來吃我這餐生日飯」,接著心頭湧上一種內疚的感覺,當刻說了很多個對不起,明知你叫我少上網多休息,但我還是想公開感謝你和父親對我的寬容和支持,即使有一句說話是難以啟齒,口直心快和理性的我也不習慣講這類說話,但我也想跟前天生日的媽媽說:我愛妳。

梁振英願跟學生對話之日,就是補回媽媽生日飯的一天,我會謹記你的說話,在絕食期間多休息和禱告,容許我最後說一句話:我為我的父母感恩和自豪。

黄之鋒
寫於絕食第23小時

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